Hi people wassup??
seeing u guys after a long time!!!
today when i set in my couch to write this, i see theres absolutely no one else to talk to about all dese!!i cant trust people anymore...or shud i say no one is worth trusting!!People are busy savin there own arse!!I admit i have done a hell lota mistakes in lifebut theres smething called forgiveness man!!people re not ready to forgive me and wen i do da same point fingers at me!!i regret growing up man!!i miss dose days so badly man!!i was so happy then and bloody hell look at me now!!!
what i have realised is i have to make my own way and no one will help me in any way, and at da same time i shud stop xpectin from people as well!!i hav realised dat even i nid to b selfish to survive!!i hav realised dat the mantra shud be: stop caring and botherin and love urself!!!!
But at da end of day i regret so many bloody decisions of my life!!
I wish i cud get back all dat i hav lost
I wish life gives me a second chance to fulfil my dreams once again!!!!

23rd of January......

today is 23rd of january, happy birthday to NETAJI..... today i was caught by my father doing somethin wrong.Isaw hi passing by and unfortunately for me but fortunately for my life he saw me and seeing me he drove the car faster...I WAS DEAD SCARED. i was trying to think wat could have happened to me....but i was numb!!!ABSOLUTELY NUMB!!!!then i received an sms from him which said,"All my hopes on u r shatterd.....I'm utterly upset". t was taken aback at that moment.....
Then at the nxt instant i received a call from himand he said that all these days he was mixing wid me and advicing me as a friend(which is true)and said that he is utterly upset with me and kept the phone..then i replied to his sms that i am really sorry and this will never happen again.

Now while i write thisam and alone and trying to study a bit. My mom and dad r not at home and i have absolutely no clue wats gona happen wen dey return...I AM DEAD SCARED!!!
i wasnt to run away where i am alone....absolutely alone...But at the same time i want my old days back.....Now dont u think that this is cald frickle mindedness....well u'r right i am a frickle minded person...as someone said "a shaky kind of a character!!!!!"

psalm of life ...........

"Tell me not in mournful numbers,
Life is but an empty dream.'
The soul is dead that slumbers
And things are not what they seem
Life is real, life is earnest the grave is not its goal
Dust thou art to dust returnest
Was not spoken of the soul
Not enjoyment nor sorrow
Is our destined end or way
but to act that each tomorrow finds us further than today
Art is long time is fleeting and our hearts though stout and brave
Still like muffled drum are beating
Funeral marches to the grave
In the world's broad field of battle, in the bivouac of life
Be not like dumb driven cattle, be a hero in the strife
Trust no future however pleasant!
Let the dead past bury its dead
Act - act in the living present
Heart within and god overhead
Lives of great men all remind us
We can make our hearts sublime
And departing leave behind us
Footprints on the sands of time!
Footprints that perhaps another
Sailing o'er life's solemn main
A forlorn shipwrecked brother
Seeing shall take heart again
Let us now be
Up and doing
With a heart for any fate
Still achieving, still pursuing
Learn to labour and to wait!



© KOYEL......

i'll change.....atleast will make an effort

Today i have learnt a lot......I consider this day as one of the most significant days of my life......
I learnt that i need to keep my bloody mouth shut when am not needed.....and come watever i m gona do that....i give a dam wat people think bout it..................or rather i shudnt care....bcoz i have seen that theres no respect for my feelings. People take me as a piece of joke...when it ry to do good for others i harm myself...i am not gona tolerate this nemore..i will leave life my way and will not care watsoever haapens to others no matterhow close he or she is....
Enough is enough
i have been a guy who never could keep things to himself and blurted it out watever it may be....but this time i'll make a conscious effort to keep things to myself....i promise i'll do that...
am not gona interfere in other's life.....

Someday will come.....

I am sure someday will come…..
When I won’t get the things I hated
But the things I wanted…..

I am sure I’ll be back someday
With all my strengths
The world’s gona stare at me
With all the glory and its stars….

I am gona prove my point
With all the myth I have
Persuade the deep goal inside me
With sheer strength and my faded courage

God has his own ears
And I know that he has it
He is listening to all these stuffs
And reward me back with all happiness I lost……..

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4th...........

I read in a horoscope book that for people who re born on the 13th of July has some lucky dates in the calender..........4th is one of them. On one of the foutrth(I wont mention the month) i and a friend of minewas cought doing something mischiefby someone. We both were quite scaredand i abused that horoscope book left and right because 4th was supposed to be lucky but turned out to be pretty unlucky for me as i was born on the 13th of July....But later , when nothin actually happened and we came out clean, i regretted my decision of abusin that book as it turned out to be pretty much lucky for me....
This day has chsnged my life and taught me a hell lota things.....and turned out to be pretty significant for me.....It taght me the meaning of real friendship and changed my wrong way of life to the right way....
thank u very much.....

Discarded Love
Bleak midwinter
And snow lies all around
My heart is cold and empty
And I long to walk on the hot sand
With the sun burning my body
And my love close at hand
Will you ever return?
Or will I always live in bleak midwinter
Send me word of where you are
Have you found a new love?
Have you moved on to someone new?
I am still in a frozen state
Stuck rigid where you left me
Unable to move on
One kiss would thaw my bones
One moment of bliss would unfreeze my toes
I would follow you to the ends of the earth
But my feet are frozen to the ground
And all around there is no sound
In this frozen wilderness
I will live forever
Suspended in time
A monument to discarded love

Devil in me....

Around, all around, the sinister creatures gather.

My dread grows as the stroke of death falls against my naked soul.

It crushes me, and darkly myblood dripsto the wicked earth that is my prison.

In my madness I call your namewhile death laughs cruelly.

Now alone, my love falls upon cold eyes.

This is my salvation

I go into darkness.......

I see my future ahead,
Glowing to its glory!
With darkness all over..
Trying to find the reson
I find a pale me..
No....i face REALITY
With my non-ambitious life
I see a boy.....
Staring through darkness,
Absolutely helpless !!
I find myself...
I search the reason
Again i find the same person....
Staring back at me
I try eloping from there
But where shall I go??
I see darkness allover.......

Am Starting It Today.........

i am not a writer neither i aspire to be one....
am a kind of good for nothin type of a person.....sorry cant help...bcoz i dont wana change myself a bit...u need to take me AS I AM if u want to that is....
i made this blog just for fun...and my closest friend showed me that there exists somethin like this....
am not here to get any sort of feedbacks bout my writin....so if u r here to criticise or doing anythin of dat sort u r not at all welcome because i give dam....
am not a poet and dont xpect any poems here...